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Birth chart of Ibai Gómez

Ibai Gómez birth chart is shown with zodiac signs and aspects. Because the birth time is unknown, Arcadia does not use houses, Rising sign, or angular dominants as the main basis of interpretation.

Ibai Gómez's chart rests first on the stable factors: Sun in Scorpio and Moon in Aries. Without a reliable time, signs and aspects are stronger than the Rising sign or houses.

Chart detail:

Saturn conjunct Neptune (orb 0.1°) gives a central dynamic in this reading. The orb is extremely tight; this aspect is one of the chart's strongest signals.

In plain terms, this aspect brings hard structure, limits, dream, image, and collective inspiration together.

The birth time is not known with certainty, so the Rising sign and houses are less reliable. Signs and exact aspects give the safer reading base.

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Displayed: 11/11/1989, 12:00 (unknown hour) at
(0°00' E, 0°00' N, GMT 0).

Source: Wikipedia
0°45'15°16'10°19'2°55'10°11'10°34'4°53'6°6'19°30'24°12'19°5'
Displayed: 11/11/1989, 12:00 (unknown hour) at
(0°00' E, 0°00' N, GMT 0).

Source: Wikipedia

Sun Scorpio
Scorpio

Sun in Scorpio

Moon Aries
Aries

Moon in Aries





The Rising sign cannot be determined if the time is not known.

Element Sign Degrees Speed
Sun Scorpio 19° 04' 41" 1.005 / day
Moon Aries 24° 11' 52" 15.176 / day
Mercury Scorpio 19° 30' 08" 1.599 / day
Venus Capricorn 06° 06' 11" 0.984 / day
Mars Scorpio 04° 52' 56" 0.673 / day
Jupiter Cancer 10° 34' 20" R -0.044 / day
Saturn Capricorn 10° 11' 16" 0.088 / day
Uranus Capricorn 02° 54' 57" 0.047 / day
Neptune Capricorn 10° 18' 42" 0.026 / day
Pluto Scorpio 15° 16' 17" 0.04 / day
Lilith Scorpio 00° 45' 11" 0.111 / day
RS Aquarius 18° 10' 21"
MH Scorpio 23° 00' 30"

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Analysis

Astrological birth chart geometry with aspect lines
This visual introduces the aspect section; houses stay out of the main reading when the birth time is unknown.

How to read this chart

This section gives a concrete reading thread. It highlights the most visible signatures, then the tabs keep each placement separate instead of mixing everything together.

Important: Unknown birth time: the Rising sign, houses, and angular dominants are too time-sensitive to anchor the interpretation. The Moon remains useful, but its exact aspects can shift during the day: tight non-Moon aspects are more reliable when they exist.

Reading map

Start here: a short reading that shows what hooks, what helps, what pushes back, and where it becomes concrete.

1. Big Three, Personal Essence

Sun in Scorpio · Moon in Aries

First hook: this is where the chart often becomes recognizable in real life. Sun in Scorpio: identity and direction move through intensity, desire, crisis, secrecy, and invisible power; Moon in Aries: emotional safety looks for initiative, speed, confrontation, and direct action. Because the birth time is missing, reliable aspects should carry the next step before houses or angles.

2. Dominants (visible planets)

Dominants unavailable without reliable birth time

Angular dominants depend on birth time. Without a reliable hour, do not use them as primary evidence.

3. Important harmonious aspects

Harmonious circuit: Mars, Venus, Jupiter, Uranus, and Pluto

This is the easiest door into the chart: it shows what tends to cooperate naturally.

This pattern describes what comes more easily. Houses are not used here: unknown time. It connects Mars (action, anger, desire, and courage), Venus (attraction, pleasure, taste, and relationships), Jupiter (growth, faith, luck, and confidence in the future), and Uranus (change, freedom, rupture, and originality).

This is the clearest cooperation pattern in the chart: Venus sextile Mars (orb 1.2°), Mars sextile Uranus (orb 2°), and Jupiter trine Pluto (orb 4.7°). It shows where functions support each other, recover, or come naturally when used together. Because several planets are connected, the full pattern matters more than one isolated aspect.

  • Harmony Venus sextile Mars (orb 1.2°) Sextile: Venus in Capricorn can cooperate with Mars in Scorpio in the same concrete choice or situation. For this pair, the aspect lets desire and action cooperate when the person engages it.
  • Harmony Mars sextile Uranus (orb 2°) Sextile: Mars in Scorpio can cooperate with Uranus in Capricorn in the same concrete choice or situation. For this pair, the aspect lets action and change cooperate inventively.
  • Harmony Jupiter trine Pluto (orb 4.7°) Trine: Jupiter in Cancer can support Pluto in Scorpio naturally and positively.
  • Harmony Mars trine Jupiter (orb 5.7°) Trine: Mars in Scorpio can support Jupiter in Cancer naturally and positively. For this pair, the aspect gives natural support between effort and confidence: action can open horizons, and fulfillment gives courage more momentum.
4. Important tensions

Tension circuit: Jupiter, Neptune, Saturn, and Venus

This is the pressure line to read first: it shows where tension repeats in concrete situations.

This pattern shows where pressure builds fastest. Houses are not used here: unknown time. It connects Jupiter (growth, faith, luck, and confidence in the future), Neptune (dreams, ideals, imagination, and confusion), Saturn (responsibility, limits, effort, and patience), and Venus (attraction, pleasure, taste, and relationships).

This is the clearest friction pattern in the chart: Jupiter opposite Neptune (orb 0.3°), Jupiter opposite Saturn (orb 0.4°), and Venus opposite Jupiter (orb 4.5°). It shows where pressure, contradiction, or repeated effort concentrates. Because several planets are connected, the full pattern matters more than one isolated aspect.

  • Tension Jupiter opposite Neptune (orb 0.3°) Opposition in real life: Jupiter in Cancer pulls one way, while Neptune in Capricorn answers from the other side. This can create alternation, contradiction, or the need to carry two opposite demands. For this pair, the aspect sets the drive for personal fulfillment against image, collective dream, ideal, or public expectation.
  • Tension Jupiter opposite Saturn (orb 0.4°) Opposition in real life: Jupiter in Cancer pulls one way, while Saturn in Capricorn answers from the other side. This can create alternation, contradiction, or the need to carry two opposite demands. For this pair, the aspect opposes widening horizons to limits, duty, or caution.
  • Tension Venus opposite Jupiter (orb 4.5°) Opposition in real life: Venus in Capricorn pulls one way, while Jupiter in Cancer answers from the other side. This can create alternation, contradiction, or the need to carry two opposite demands. For this pair, the aspect sets Venus against Jupiter: taste, relationship, pleasure, or the wish to be liked can conflict with excess, promise, generosity, or the need to widen life.
5. Important houses

Houses unavailable without reliable birth time

Houses describe domains of existence, but they depend on birth time. Without a reliable hour, signs and aspects should carry the reading.



Sun
Sun in Scorpio Identity, ego, father figure
Moon
Moon in Aries Dream, inner child, mother figure
The three foundations

Without a reliable birth time, the Sun, Moon, and exact aspects become the reliable base. The Rising sign, houses, and angular dominants need a reliable birth time.

The Moon can change signs during a day. Near a lunar sign change, the Moon sign remains a hypothesis.

Without a reliable hour, exact aspects and reliable repetitions can strongly nuance the starting reading.

Ibai Gómez has Sun in Scorpio

How to read this placement

Sun in Scorpio remains a reliable combination even without a birth time. The Sun describes identity, ego, father figure, visibility, and direction, with Scorpio style: intensity, desire, crisis, secrecy, and invisible power.

More about this placement

Concretely, the person expresses identity, ego, father figure, recognition, and personal direction through the Scorpio style (intensity, desire, crisis, secrecy, and invisible power). Exact aspects and repeated patterns indicate whether this theme becomes central.

Aspect connected to this placement: Sun conjunct Mercury (orb 0.4°). Aspect effect: brings identity, ego, father image, intellect, and speech together: thought sticks strongly to the self-image.

With the Sun in Scorpio, identity forms through intensity, truth, instinct, crisis, and transformation. The person often needs to go beneath appearances and understand what is hidden, powerful, forbidden, or emotionally charged. This placement can give strategic perception, endurance, psychological depth, and the ability to survive difficult transitions. It is not only secrecy; it is the need to live from a place that feels real and uncompromised. When defensive, the person may control too much, test loyalty, or stay attached to conflict.

    Sun conjunct Mercury (orb 0.4°) brings the two planets out together. The orb is extremely tight; this aspect is one of the chart's strongest signals.

    Here, both planets use the same Scorpio style (intensity, desire, crisis, secrecy, and invisible power). Sun in Scorpio brings identity, ego, father figure, visibility, and direction; Mercury in Scorpio brings intellect, language, thought, and technique.

    Concrete effect: this aspect brings identity, ego, father image, intellect, and speech together: thought sticks strongly to the self-image.

    Reading note: Common solar conjunction: Mercury and Venus always stay close to the Sun. It becomes genuinely meaningful when the orb is very tight, one factor is angular, or the same theme repeats elsewhere.

    Sun conjunct Pluto (orb 3.8°) brings the two planets out together. The orb is moderate; it stays secondary beside tighter signatures.

    Here, both planets use the same Scorpio style (intensity, desire, crisis, secrecy, and invisible power). Sun in Scorpio brings identity, ego, father figure, visibility, and direction; Pluto in Scorpio brings crisis, power, survival, and regeneration.

    Concrete effect: this aspect joins the Sun to Pluto: identity, ego, father image, power, crisis, and survival instinct come out together.



Ibai Gómez has Moon in Aries

How to read this placement

Moon in Aries remains a useful base without a birth time. The Moon sign is often usable, but near a Moon sign change it remains a hypothesis; the Moon describes personal dream, play, inner child, childhood imprint, mother figure, mother image, optimism, and inner rhythm, with Aries style: initiative, speed, confrontation, and direct action.

More about this placement

Concretely, the person expresses personal dream, play instinct, inner child, childhood imprint, mother figure, mother image, optimism, and inner rhythm through the Aries style (initiative, speed, confrontation, and direct action). Exact aspects and repeated patterns indicate whether this theme becomes central.

With the Moon in Aries, the inner child wants movement, directness, and the right to act quickly. The personal dream is not passive: it pushes toward decision, challenge, honesty, courage, and sometimes anger when life feels blocked. The mother image or childhood imprint can be linked to speed, independence, conflict, or the need to become brave early. At its best, this Moon gives freshness, optimism, initiative, and the courage to follow a desire before it becomes overthought. Under stress, it can become impatient, reactive, or unable to stay with a fragile situation that cannot be solved immediately.


The Rising sign cannot be determined if the time is not known.


Mercury
Mercury Intellect, language, technique
Venus
Venus Desire, taste, attraction
Mars
Mars Action, courage, competition
Jupiter
Jupiter Fulfillment, confidence, horizons

Ibai Gómez has Mercury in Scorpio

How to read this placement

Mercury in Scorpio remains a reliable combination even without a birth time. Mercury describes intellect, language, thought, and technique, with Scorpio style: intensity, desire, crisis, secrecy, and invisible power.

More about this placement

Concretely, the person expresses thinking, speech, learning, technique, and mental strategy through the Scorpio style (intensity, desire, crisis, secrecy, and invisible power). Exact aspects and repeated patterns indicate whether this theme becomes central.

With Mercury in Scorpio, the intellect investigates, penetrates, and looks for hidden motives. The person often hears what is not being said and may prefer precise, intense, private, or strategic communication. This placement can give psychological insight, research ability, persuasive force, and courage to examine taboo material. It is not satisfied with surface explanations. Under stress, it can become suspicious, secretive, verbally cutting, or too focused on control.


Ibai Gómez has Venus in Capricorn

How to read this placement

Venus in Capricorn remains a reliable combination even without a birth time. Venus describes desire, taste, relationship, and attraction, with Capricorn style: structure, ambition, responsibility, and long construction.

More about this placement

Concretely, the person expresses desire, taste, attraction, pleasure, and love style through the Capricorn style (structure, ambition, responsibility, and long construction). Exact aspects and repeated patterns indicate whether this theme becomes central.

Aspect connected to this placement: Venus conjunct Uranus (orb 3.2°). Aspect effect: ties Venus to Uranus: desire, taste, attraction, freedom, surprise, and refusal of predictable bonds come out together.

With Venus in Capricorn, affection is serious, loyal, selective, and often expressed through commitment more than display. The person may value maturity, competence, patience, ambition, and relationships that can survive time. Taste can be restrained, classic, well-built, expensive in quality rather than flashy, or linked to status and craft. This placement can love deeply but cautiously. Under stress, it can become guarded, transactional, emotionally dry, or afraid to want something it cannot control.

    Venus sextile Mars (orb 1.2°) shows active cooperation between the two planets. The orb is very tight; this describes a stable character pattern more than a passing reaction.

    Here, Venus in Capricorn brings desire, taste, relationship, and attraction with Capricorn style (structure, ambition, responsibility, and long construction); Mars in Scorpio brings action, courage, competition, and effort with Scorpio style (intensity, desire, crisis, secrecy, and invisible power).

    Concrete cooperation: desire and action can cooperate when the person engages it.

    Venus conjunct Uranus (orb 3.2°) brings the two planets out together. The orb is tight enough to count in the main reading.

    Here, both planets use the same Capricorn style (structure, ambition, responsibility, and long construction). Venus in Capricorn brings desire, taste, relationship, and attraction; Uranus in Capricorn brings disruption, independence, and change.

    Concrete effect: this aspect ties Venus to Uranus: desire, taste, attraction, freedom, surprise, and refusal of predictable bonds come out together.

    Venus conjunct Saturn (orb 4.1°) brings the two planets out together. The orb is moderate; it stays secondary beside tighter signatures.

    Here, both planets use the same Capricorn style (structure, ambition, responsibility, and long construction). Venus in Capricorn brings desire, taste, relationship, and attraction; Saturn in Capricorn brings discipline, constraint, endurance, and mastery.

    Concrete effect: this aspect ties desire, affection, and beauty to restraint, seriousness, or endurance.

    Venus conjunct Neptune (orb 4.2°) brings the two planets out together. The orb is moderate; it stays secondary beside tighter signatures.

    Here, both planets use the same Capricorn style (structure, ambition, responsibility, and long construction). Venus in Capricorn brings desire, taste, relationship, and attraction; Neptune in Capricorn brings imagination, image, popularity, collective moods, and inspiration.

    Concrete effect: this aspect mixes Venus with Neptune: desire, beauty, projection, glamour, romantic ideal, and sensitivity to collective moods come out together.

    Venus opposite Jupiter (orb 4.5°) puts the two planets face to face, with visible back-and-forth or tension. The orb is moderate; it stays secondary beside tighter signatures.

    Concrete conflict: this aspect sets Venus against Jupiter: taste, relationship, pleasure, or the wish to be liked can conflict with excess, promise, generosity, or the need to widen life.

    Venus sextile Lilith (orb 5.3°) shows active cooperation between the two planets. The orb is moderate; it stays secondary beside tighter signatures.

    Concrete cooperation: Venus can use Lilith's ideal actively, giving attraction or art a precise uncompromising charge.



Ibai Gómez has Mars in Scorpio

How to read this placement

Mars in Scorpio remains a reliable combination even without a birth time. Mars describes action, courage, competition, and effort, with Scorpio style: intensity, desire, crisis, secrecy, and invisible power.

More about this placement

Concretely, the person expresses action, anger, courage, competition, and effort through the Scorpio style (intensity, desire, crisis, secrecy, and invisible power). Exact aspects and repeated patterns indicate whether this theme becomes central.

With Mars in Scorpio, action is intense, private, sexual, strategic, and hard to deflect. The person acts from deep desire, survival instinct, emotional truth, or the need to regain power in a situation. This Mars can give endurance, courage under pressure, magnetic desire, and the ability to confront what others avoid. Under stress, it can become controlling, obsessive, jealous, vengeful, or unwilling to release a conflict.

    Same aspect, other side: the full reading is under the other planet, and it also applies to Mars.

    Open the full aspect reading under Venus

    Mars sextile Uranus (orb 2°) shows active cooperation between the two planets. The orb is very tight; this describes a stable character pattern more than a passing reaction.

    Here, Mars in Scorpio brings action, courage, competition, and effort with Scorpio style (intensity, desire, crisis, secrecy, and invisible power); Uranus in Capricorn brings disruption, independence, and change with Capricorn style (structure, ambition, responsibility, and long construction).

    Concrete cooperation: action and change can cooperate inventively.

    Mars conjunct Lilith (orb 4.1°) brings the two planets out together. The orb is moderate; it stays secondary beside tighter signatures.

    Here, both planets use the same Scorpio style (intensity, desire, crisis, secrecy, and invisible power). Mars in Scorpio brings action, courage, competition, and effort; Lilith in Scorpio brings pure ideal, absolute demand, fascination, and refusal of compromise.

    Concrete effect: this aspect joins action to Lilith's ideal demand: force may seek perfect expression rather than everyday aggression.

    Mars trine Jupiter (orb 5.7°) shows positive structural ease between the two planets. The orb is moderate; it stays secondary beside tighter signatures.

    Concrete support: this aspect gives natural support between effort and confidence: action can open horizons, and fulfillment gives courage more momentum.

    Mars sextile Saturn (orb 5.3°) shows active cooperation between the two planets. The orb is moderate; it stays secondary beside tighter signatures.

    Concrete cooperation: action and discipline can cooperate when effort receives a durable method.



Ibai Gómez has Jupiter in Cancer

How to read this placement

Jupiter in Cancer remains a reliable combination even without a birth time. Jupiter describes personal fulfillment, confidence, encouragement, and broader horizons, with Cancer style: memory, protection, belonging, and family sensitivity.

More about this placement

Concretely, the person expresses personal fulfillment, confidence, and opening of horizons through the Cancer style (memory, protection, belonging, and family sensitivity). Exact aspects and repeated patterns indicate whether this theme becomes central.

Aspect connected to this placement: Jupiter opposite Neptune (orb 0.3°). Aspect effect: sets the drive for personal fulfillment against image, collective dream, ideal, or public expectation.

With Jupiter in Cancer, the person finds fulfillment through family, memory, care, food, belonging, and emotional protection. They often become more confident when they can create a safe atmosphere for themselves or others. This Jupiter can give warmth, hospitality, protective generosity, and a strong instinct for emotional timing. Under stress, it can become clannish, sentimental, overprotective, or too dependent on familiar emotional patterns.

    Jupiter opposite Neptune (orb 0.3°) puts the two planets face to face, with visible back-and-forth or tension. The orb is extremely tight; this aspect is one of the chart's strongest signals.

    Here, Jupiter in Cancer brings personal fulfillment, confidence, encouragement, and broader horizons with Cancer style (memory, protection, belonging, and family sensitivity); Neptune in Capricorn brings imagination, image, popularity, collective moods, and inspiration with Capricorn style (structure, ambition, responsibility, and long construction).

    Concrete conflict: this aspect sets the drive for personal fulfillment against image, collective dream, ideal, or public expectation.

    Jupiter opposite Saturn (orb 0.4°) puts the two planets face to face, with visible back-and-forth or tension. The orb is extremely tight; this aspect is one of the chart's strongest signals.

    Here, Jupiter in Cancer brings personal fulfillment, confidence, encouragement, and broader horizons with Cancer style (memory, protection, belonging, and family sensitivity); Saturn in Capricorn brings discipline, constraint, endurance, and mastery with Capricorn style (structure, ambition, responsibility, and long construction).

    Concrete conflict: this aspect opposes widening horizons to limits, duty, or caution.

    Same aspect, other side: the full reading is under the other planet, and it also applies to Jupiter.

    Open the full aspect reading under Venus

    Jupiter trine Pluto (orb 4.7°) shows positive structural ease between the two planets. The orb is moderate; it stays secondary beside tighter signatures.

    Concrete support: this aspect gives Jupiter (personal fulfillment, confidence, encouragement, and broader horizons) natural support for handling crises: pressure can make Jupiter more lucid instead of blocking it.

    Same aspect, other side: the full reading is under the other planet, and it also applies to Jupiter.

    Open the full aspect reading under Mars




Saturn
Saturn Discipline, limits, structure
Uranus
Uranus Freedom, rupture, invention
Neptune
Neptune Image, popularity, inspiration
Pluto
Pluto Crisis, power, regeneration
Lilith
Lilith Ideal, fascination, refusal

Ibai Gómez has Saturn in Capricorn

How to read this placement

Saturn in Capricorn remains a reliable combination even without a birth time. Saturn describes discipline, constraint, endurance, and mastery, with Capricorn style: structure, ambition, responsibility, and long construction.

More about this placement

Concretely, the person expresses discipline, limits, duty, fear, and long construction through the Capricorn style (structure, ambition, responsibility, and long construction). Exact aspects and repeated patterns indicate whether this theme becomes central.

Aspect connected to this placement: Saturn conjunct Neptune (orb 0.1°). Aspect effect: brings hard structure, limits, dream, image, and collective inspiration together.

With Saturn in Capricorn, discipline is applied to ambition, structure, status, responsibility, and long-term construction. The person often understands hierarchy, consequence, and time very early, even when it feels heavy. This can give executive strength, patience, authority, and the capacity to build something durable. Under stress, it can become harshness, loneliness, fear of failure, or overidentification with career and public achievement.


Ibai Gómez has Uranus in Capricorn

How to read this placement

Uranus in Capricorn remains a reliable combination even without a birth time. Uranus describes disruption, independence, and change, with Capricorn style: structure, ambition, responsibility, and long construction.

More about this placement

Concretely, the person expresses freedom, disruption, broken rhythms, and the need for independence through the Capricorn style (structure, ambition, responsibility, and long construction). Exact aspects and repeated patterns indicate whether this theme becomes central.

With Uranus in Capricorn, independence expresses itself through career, hierarchy, institutions, authority, and public structure. The person may challenge old systems from inside the system, or build a professional path that does not follow the expected ladder. This placement can give strategic reform, practical innovation, and the ability to modernize rigid organizations. Under stress, it can bring sudden career breaks, conflict with authority, or a cold need to overturn structures before knowing what replaces them.


Ibai Gómez has Neptune in Capricorn

How to read this placement

Neptune in Capricorn remains a reliable combination even without a birth time. Neptune describes imagination, image, popularity, collective moods, and inspiration, with Capricorn style: structure, ambition, responsibility, and long construction.

More about this placement

Concretely, the person expresses imagination, image, popularity, and the ability to read collective currents through the Capricorn style (structure, ambition, responsibility, and long construction). Exact aspects and repeated patterns indicate whether this theme becomes central.

With Neptune in Capricorn, the dream function takes the color of authority, career, status, institutions, rules, and long-term ambition. The person may sense collective moods through the image of success, the myth of the leader, or the desire to give a dream a concrete structure. This placement can give strategic imagination, public mystique, and the ability to make institutions carry symbolic power. Under stress, it can idealize authority, blur ethical lines around ambition, or make achievement feel like salvation.


Ibai Gómez has Pluto in Scorpio

How to read this placement

Pluto in Scorpio remains a reliable combination even without a birth time. Pluto describes crisis, power, survival, and regeneration, with Scorpio style: intensity, desire, crisis, secrecy, and invisible power.

More about this placement

Concretely, the person expresses crisis, power, sexuality, survival, and transformation through the Scorpio style (intensity, desire, crisis, secrecy, and invisible power). Exact aspects and repeated patterns indicate whether this theme becomes central.

With Pluto in Scorpio, power concentrates around sexuality, death, crisis, shared resources, secrets, instinct, and deep emotional bonds. The person may be drawn to what is intense, forbidden, dangerous, or psychologically revealing. This placement can give extraordinary regenerative force, survival instinct, and the ability to face truths other people avoid. Under stress, it can become obsession, control, jealousy, manipulation, or an inability to leave a crisis before it consumes everything.


Ibai Gómez has Lilith in Scorpio

How to read this placement

Lilith in Scorpio remains a reliable combination even without a birth time. Lilith describes pure ideal, absolute demand, fascination, and refusal of compromise, with Scorpio style: intensity, desire, crisis, secrecy, and invisible power.

More about this placement

Concretely, the person expresses the pure ideal, absolute demand, desire, fascination, and what refuses to become ordinary through the Scorpio style (intensity, desire, crisis, secrecy, and invisible power). Exact aspects and repeated patterns indicate whether this theme becomes central.

With Black Moon Lilith in Scorpio, the non-negotiable point concerns sexuality, power, secrets, trust, crisis, and the truth hidden under polite surfaces. The person may refuse shallow intimacy, emotional lies, or any situation where instinct is denied. This placement can give erotic magnetism, psychological lucidity, and the courage to enter taboo territory. Under stress, it can become obsession, jealousy, control, suspicion, or a refusal to release pain because the pain feels true.